Hi, sweet baby.
We found out you were coming on the Fourth of July. Just two weeks after Mommy and Daddy said, “I do.”
We couldn’t believe it. We were so surprised. And, can I tell you a little secret? We were scared, too. We weren’t planning on you coming, but let me tell you another secret: The exact moment I saw the lines on the pregnancy test, I loved you. Everything changed for me, and my heart was immediately yours. We cried, sweet one, not tears of sadness or anger but tears of excitement, anxiety, and disbelief.
As fireworks went off throughout the night, I downloaded every pregnancy app and began reading so I could be a good mommy to you. I wanted to know everything about how you were growing and developing. You were just the size of a poppy seed when you announced you were coming. (I’ll be honest — I could have read all the information out there and never have been ready!)
We began to tell people you were on your way — first our families, then friends and coworkers. Everyone was just as surprised as we were! We went to see the doctor on our two-month anniversary, and we got to hear the most exciting sound — your heartbeat. It was just a little flicker on a screen, but it was the best sound my ears have ever heard. We got to hear your heart every month, and it was the highlight of each month.
Then, we found out you were a boy. (Daddy was right; Mommy thought you might have been a girl!) We bought you clothes and toys and began decorating the nursery. There was a part of my heart that still could not believe you were coming. You were all I thought about, but, somehow, you didn’t seem real to me yet. However, I was so ready to meet you and hold you.
When it was time for you to come, I was a nervous wreck. I was scared of labor and delivery, sure, but I was mostly scared of what I would do when we got home. Would I be a good mom? Would I know how to take care of you? What happens when there isn’t a nurse to help me?
But, finally, you came. I saw you. I heard your cries. I held your hands. I fed you. I kissed your sweet head. I watched as Daddy sang to you and held your hand. And, all of a sudden, I couldn’t imagine life without you.
You sure do keep me busy, but I wouldn’t trade one second of it. You see, even though we never planned you coming so soon, there has never been one moment in which you were not wanted, cherished, and loved.
There are some hard days, when you don’t want to sleep or are working on your first tooth, and neither one of us gets much rest. But darling, when I (finally) make it into bed at night, I miss you. Your gummy smiles, belly laughs, sweet cuddles, and silly coos all make my heart sing.
I want you to know how precious you are to us, surprise baby. You made us grow up. You make our marriage stronger. You make us learn to be more selfless (sometimes the hard way). You make us simply happy. Looking back, I would not change one single thing about when you showed up. Our family wouldn’t be complete without you in it.
So, sweet baby, thank you for coming when you did. Thank you for all the good and hard days that make me feel crazy. Thank you for being the best surprise we’ll ever get.
Love you always,