Yes, you heard me. I cried in spin class. Don’t worry, it wasn’t the messy sob, but the gentle tears of a mom who was tired and needed some time to decompress and press restart. It was like my body was wringing out the day, the week, the month, the year — and it felt good.
Over the years, I have started and not stuck to so many workout routines it is just ridiculous. There was always a good reason for not continuing to attend the class I signed up for or even go on the run for which I had just bought cute new tights. I would commit to Barre classes, classes at my local gym, Youtube fitness classes, yoga, pilates, and even hip hop. (For this I should have never darkened the door. How was I supposed to know you weren’t supposed to wear yoga pants and a tank to hip hop dance class?) I had great intentions with all the fitness regimens I wanted to try, but none really stuck.
I had sworn off spin classes because they freaked me out, quite frankly. I had always heard horror stories about how crazy those spin people were, and was I crazy? Heck no! So I let spin class live on and not worry a thing about it. Until recently when this cool-looking, new place popped up down the street. Not only was it by my favorite Chick-fil-A and nail salon in Southlake, but it had cute clothes in the window, so what’s a girl to do other than suck it up and try it out? The first class was free, for goodness sake!
So I scheduled my first class.
I walked in, a little nervous (okay, a LOT nervous), but was met with smiling faces welcoming me. Those smiling faces probably caught onto my nervousness and took care of me right away getting me some cycling shoes, showing me around, and helping me figure out the bike and getting clipped in. Then the music started, and we were off. We started in the “saddle” (that’s the bike seat for us non-spin people), and the instructor said, “Okay, time to get out of that saddle!” What, are you kidding me? Needless to say, my buns were stuck in the seat the entire time. It was exhausting, my sweat started dripping down my face, down my arms, everywhere. Thankfully, they provide a towel. I used it, and, to my delight, it smelled of eucalyptus! What a treat in the middle of this 45-minute, super-sweaty ride.
After the hills were climbed, the tap backs were done, and arms had been sufficiently worked out, it was just me . . . just me, sprinting toward the finish. Me, letting go of it all. Me, being just a little selfish. Me, striving to be better, stronger, kinder, gentler, more real. In that moment, when the lights went down, I was sprinting as fast as I could; the tears flowed. This was all I had. Me, the bike, and God . . . quiet in my head (although the impeccable playlist was pumping in the room). I was letting go and leaning in. I am strong; God is with me; and we’ve got this scary, beautiful life.
Needless to say, I am hooked, addicted, in love.
As moms, we tend to put everyone and everything first, like stylish kids for their first day of school with a perfect sign in front of them while we are wearing leggings, dawning our messy hair, and downing our third cup of coffee. I know it wasn’t just me; I saw you in the drop off lane. It’s cool though, mom. We had messy hair together. But there are times when we need to take a moment for ourselves, especially when it comes to staying fit. It’s not about being a hot mom but being a healthy mom who is an example for her kids. Our kids look up to us for so many reasons, and living a healthy lifestyle should be one of them. Oh, and don’t worry. The occasional bowl of ice cream after our angels are asleep is more than okay. 😉
The Fort Worth Moms Blog is hosting a health & fitness event throughout January 2017! It’s the Workout Try Out. The details go like this: Each workout location and type will offer FWMB readers a private class just for us! Not only will you enjoy this exclusive time, but will also — in true FWMB style — be able to enter to win one of the fun giveaways. You can sign up for all four workout events or you can pick and choose the ones you want. Ticket prices range from $5 – $10 per workout. Here’s the tricky part: Because limited space is an issue, we have a limited number of tickets for each event. If you want to attend a certain workout, we strongly encourage you to snag your spot before they are g-o-n-e.